Found myself in a pretty terrible place mental health wise for a few years. Every day after work was 20-60mg edibles, a bowl or three, and vaping. I did this with some incredibly toxic people.
I’m back on track with my life now and only smoke occasionally. But now when I get high I just fucking panic. I’m talking one single joint and I’m in full blown stoned panic. It’s not eating junk food and laughing at stupid movies any more. It’s being terrified that everyone hates me and that I’m wasting my life and stressing about climate change the increasingly fascist government. I literally cannot relax when I’m high any more.
Is this a thing that happens? How do I go back to a happy high?
Respect for taking the step to distance yourself from these people
Thanks. I’m pretty lonely now but I’m working on finding people who are good for me.
Being for yourself is better than being surrounded by assholes, imo. I love my cat, best fellow ever!
Weed amplifies you’re emotions. If you feel happy, you feel more happy. If you feel anxious about things, you feel even more anxious about them.
I think maybe because you’ve worked hard to get yourself better you’re anxious that you might be getting worse by smoking again.
I definitely worry about falling back on getting high nonstop and not being able to get away from my past life
Yeah, I reckon until you can address that concern getting high won’t be enjoyable.
Holy shit, 20-60mg edibles? I’m pretty good at 5. Maybe you’re going too hard.
Tolerances to edibles can be weird, they never seem to do much to me. I’ve felt higher smoking a bowl or two than I have eating 250mg of medical grade high-thc RSO out the tube like a fuckin’ hamster.
Dabs though… <3
I definitely was but this was a while ago
I agree w the other posters. Might be a good time to step back from da bud & take some time to assess & address the root cause of those panic attacks. I’m moving on to the next chapter orb my life & find that I needed to do it sober in order to make any type of significant progress. While I miss drinking & drugs every damn day, it’s not really worth it right now. Once I complete that next phase & get to a better place, I’m definitely gonna partake again, but need to learn some restraint first.
Hope you get it sorted & good luck 🍀
I stopped smoking for years and started again. I’d say that deep introspection is a very early symptom when you get high the first few times. I have a theory that this is why a lot of people don’t like cannabis: They get an honest look at how they actually act and think, and lots don’t like what they see.
But now when I get high I just fucking panic. I’m talking one single joint and I’m in full blown stoned panic
It sounds like you’re possibly smoking high THC low/none CBD products. Probably at the doses you were used to smoking, but now you don’t have same tolerances.
The very simplest thing I think could solve that issue is CBD.
Idk if it really has really any effects on it’s own, but it definitely attenuates THC high. The high then feels more like a “classical” high, still effective, but dulls away those negative panicky feelings.
That’s a video from like 15-20 years ago, but perfectly demonstrates my point. It’s a BBC reporter doing a story on “Skunk”, which was used as the term for very strong cannabis. It was strengthening around that time to about 20% THC. Now best plants are going somewhere around 30%THC, some even claiming closer to 40% on some plants.
She gets intravenous cannabis, twice. On one day she gets THC. On the other, THC and CBD (“more like the ‘natural’ makeup of the cannabis plant”). I think you’ll see which is which.
And probably recognise some of the feelings on the only THC part.
Sometimes I get speedy paranoid highs if I harvest a plant too early but letting the weed cure for a few months mellows it out. I don’t really think this is it in your case though.
To me it sounds like before you were so constantly stoned you didn’t really absorb reality. You were medicated out of your mind. Now you’re in a better place and sometimes that’s more difficult. There’s more emotion to deal with. You’re not just monotone stoned all the time.
It doesn’t sound like you’re having irrational thoughts, the world we live in legitimately is anxiety inducing. Have you tried meditating or doing whatever it is that lets you be chill with the fucked state things are in? Get high and do something rather than just vegetating. You’re the only one who knows what will do the trick. If you’re feeling like you’re wasting your life… do something worthwhile. Sometimes that’s just something simple like going on a walk and appreciating the beauty around you. Maybe it’s working out a bit. Maybe it’s fixing up the landscape around your house, or starting a garden. You gotta do something though, by the sounds of it. Vegging out will likely exacerbate your condition.
I think you’re right
